Tonight i am crying yet again, but not for the reasons you might think…..
Not because it is 9pm and i have hours of mommy work left to to.
Not because i have mountains of laundry that still have to be folded.
Not because i have plates of food to toss (because no one ate the food that took over an hour to cook and no one would eat more than 2 no thank you bites of.) and piles of dishes to do.
Not because i have dirty clothing to pick up and toys to put away.
Not because i have toothpaste to clean off bathroom counters and toilets to wipe clean.
Not because i have animals to feed or breakfast, lunch and dinner for tomorrow to plan.
Not because i have books to re-shelf and night lights to turn on and kids to tuck in tight under an extra blanket on this cold night.
Not because i have worksheets to print off, charts and signs to cut, color and paste or homeschool lessons to prepare for tomorrow.
Not because i have tylenol to take and cough syrup to down to just finish up my mommy work tonight.
Not because my husband is gone working third shift all night (as usual) and i am alone again.
Not because i have scriptures to still read and prayers still to be said.
Not because of any of these difficult things i have left to do tonight do my tears fall……….Tonight i cry because i DO believe that my children understand how hard it is to be this mommy.
Because my 6 year old tells me to “go take a short break, I got this mommy” in my moment of frustration. Because my 5 year old explains to me his absolute gratitude for being homeschooled and his love of learning from his “mommy teacher” Because my 4 year old wraps his arms and legs around me and says, “I just love you so much i can’t stand it”. And because my 2 year old said the the simple words for the first time to me tonight, “Luv Momma.”
I cry tonight because it is the little bits and pieces of love that i get from my children that make it all worth it tonight and every night.
I love you my babies, with all that I am and through out all time and forever. Thank you for allowing me to be your mother.